Fertile Hope - Gladly Holding Onto the Typical

dreamcatchers   if i just get pregnant   fertile wishes“If I just get pregnant, then…”

 

Then, I will have my baby. My family.

 

Then the nightmare of infertility and the arduous path of fertility treatment will be over.

 

“If I just get pregnant, then…”

 

I will feel the thrill of seeing ultrasounds that reflect my baby’s existence. See a sac first. Then a fetal pole, perhaps.

 

A heartbeat.

 

“If I just get pregnant…”

 

Then I will see and hear my baby’s heartbeat. Know that my body is finally, FINALLY, succeeding at holding a baby gently and loving and most of all? Safely.

“If I just get pregnant…”

It will be my turn to share the news and see the delight reflected in my loved one’s eyes. Their relief that my wait is over and their hope that I have returned to them, without the shadows in my eyes.  My turn to show an ultrasound image of a shadowy figure that will become my son or daughter.

 

“If I just get pregnant…”

 

The changes that my body will experience will begin, first invisible from the outside. Perhaps the nausea which could be so challenging, yet welcome because a reminder that all is well and baby is developing. The expansion will begin to hold this tiny being and I will rejoice.

 

“If I just get pregnant…”

 

I will remember the pain of infertility and be watchful for averted eyes and the pause before a friend or colleague congratulates me. I will be sensitive and compassionate about how, where, to whom and when I deliver my long awaited news so as not to hurt someone else inadvertently.

 

“If I just get pregnant…”

 

It will be my turn to be celebrated; my turn to open lovingly wrapped gifts and see the love in each stitch of the handmade knitted blankets.

 

“If I just get pregnant…”

 

I will feel the joy of my little one moving around, resettling and getting comfortable; feeling an elbow, foot or head. Experiencing my family’s love for me as I grow bigger to include this new member of our clan.

 

Then it will finally be my turn.

 

To be a mom.

 

To hold my baby.

 

To continue our family.

 

To extend my heart in every single possible direction.

 

To leave fertility shots, ultrasounds and medical procedures behind me.

 

To begin again.

 

 

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Topics: pregnancy, fertility journey, Fertile Hope, Conception

Lisa Rosenthal

Lisa has over thirty years of experience in the fertility field. After her personal infertility journey, she felt dissatisfied with the lack of comprehensive services available to support her. She was determined to help others undergoing fertility treatment. Lisa has been with RMACT for eleven years and serves as Patient Advocate and the Strategic Content Lead.

Lisa is the teacher and founder of Fertile Yoga, a program designed to support men and women on their quest for their families through gentle movement and meditation.

Lisa’s true passion is supporting patients getting into treatment, being able to stay in treatment and staying whole and complete throughout the process. Lisa is also a Certified Grief Recovery Specialist, which is helpful in her work with fertility patients.

Her experience also includes working with RESOLVE: The National Infertility Association and The American Fertility Association (now Path2Parenthood), where she was Educational Coordinator, Conference Director and Assistant Executive Director.

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