Waiting for A Baby

Waiting for BabiesI saw my baby everywhere. 

 

I saw all the details. 

 

Dark hair.

 

Light eyes.

 

My nose. 

 

His jaw.

 

My Grandma's smile.

 

My Father's belly laugh.

 

I pictured my children.

 

My babies.

 

Well before I saw them in my life, I saw them in my heart.

 

There was a picture reflected back in my breath.

 

I imagined the pictures in the frames.

 

One for my mom, as she became a mother to a mother.

 

The face smiling back at me, echoing the smile sitting in the high chair, eating bananas. 

 

Each frame showing me all the things that I was dreaming of; my life as a mommy.

 

I could see it so clearly.

 

But it never showed up on a pregnancy test.

 

And I kept waiting to fill those frames. To see the reality of my child's face. 

 

Patience came to live with me instead. Settling in like a thunderstorm on a humid summer night.

 

Not what I was hoping and dreaming of; not the face of my baby. 

 

Patience kept me company during many two week waits. During many courses of fertility treatment. During many breaks from treatment cycles.

 

What I wanted was to see my baby looking out to me from those picture frames.

 

And I was willing to do anything I needed to make that happen. 

 

So I learned patience.

 

And I pictured my babies.

 

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Topics: Support, waiting

Lisa Rosenthal

Lisa has over thirty years of experience in the fertility field. After her personal infertility journey, she felt dissatisfied with the lack of comprehensive services available to support her. She was determined to help others undergoing fertility treatment. Lisa has been with RMACT for eleven years and serves as Patient Advocate and the Strategic Content Lead.

Lisa is the teacher and founder of Fertile Yoga, a program designed to support men and women on their quest for their families through gentle movement and meditation.

Lisa’s true passion is supporting patients getting into treatment, being able to stay in treatment and staying whole and complete throughout the process. Lisa is also a Certified Grief Recovery Specialist, which is helpful in her work with fertility patients.

Her experience also includes working with RESOLVE: The National Infertility Association and The American Fertility Association (now Path2Parenthood), where she was Educational Coordinator, Conference Director and Assistant Executive Director.

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