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Trying to Conceive: Enough with Babies in the Newsfeed? Unbaby.Me

  
  
  

Unbaby.Me: A Welcome New App.

Puppies and Kittens

There are applications for everything, it turns out.

 

A new personal favorite of mine:  Unbaby. Me

 

What a great idea. Change all the pictures of babies into other things: Seeing birds, dogs, cats or stars, instead of babies.

 

Backing up a bit, to me, the world has always been divided into roughly two types of "infertile" women. Those who couldn't bear to see other people's babies and those who found it hopeful and liked seeing them.

 

The Gamut of Emotions While Trying to Conceive

Bet you're guessing that I'm in the first category. It's not all that flattering to admit. I would have liked to have been able to be gracious and loving with other people's babies while I was trying to conceive. I didn't feel that way. I couldn't fake feeling that way. I felt jealous. I felt ungracious. I felt sad. Frustrated. Upset. Reminded of what I still didn't have. I wondered if their success was going to mean my failure. I felt older and more damaged and less lovable.

 

Boy, that's a mouthful. But that was how I felt seeing other people's babies. 

 

I looked up the words envy and jealous. Here's the definitions from Merriam-Webster

 

Envy

1: painful or resentful awareness of an advantage enjoyed by another joined with a desire to possess the same advantage
2: obsolete : malice
3: an object of envious notice or feeling <his new car made him the envy of his friends>

Jealous

1a: intolerant of rivalry or unfaithfulness

1b: disposed to suspect rivalry or unfaithfulness

2: hostile toward a rival or one believed to enjoy an advantage

3: vigilant in guarding a possession <new colonies were jealous of their new independence — Scott Buchanan> 

 

These definitions actually kind of annoy me. They don't really get to the heart of the matter. Nor do they adequately explain the difference between the two words. After reading for a while, I learned a few things about these two words. First thing I learned is that the word jealous came into being before envy. The second thing is that jealousy is more about the other person while envy is about what the other person has that we would like for ourselves.


Too much.  


What I know.  

Fertility Treatment Saving Grace: The Details

Envy and jealousy are not the same thing. The difference in the definitions were my saving grace while I was in fertility treatment. Those differences were what allowed me to forgive myself for the feelings that I had towards my friends and their babies. Or strangers babies. Or anyone's babies. 


Here are the differences as I understand them; or more, as I redefined and reclaimed these words. As simply put as possible.

 

Jealousy is wanting what the other person has. Wanting it, having them not have it. Envy, is wanting what the other has, but not needing for them NOT to have it.

 

OK. Try two.

 

I never wanted to take away anything from someone else. I just wanted for myself, what they had. That somehow seemed more forgiveable than a feeling that their happiness and contentment should evaporate.

 

Coming back to Unbaby.Me. An application that would permit you to identify pictures of babies, which then changes all images of babies to other images. Examples: Dogs. Cats. Birds.

 

I will just say that if that had existed while I was trying to conceive, I would have gotten it. 

 

Cats, dogs, birds. They just don't make me jealous.

 

Or envious. 

 

 

Comments

This is great and very true! I've heard of Unbaby.me and think it's hilarious...although my favorite alternative to baby pictures that they provide is a picture of bacon. :)  
 
(Hope to see you at Yoga on Thursday, weather pending!)
Posted @ Tuesday, March 05, 2013 6:06 PM by Aly
LOL. 
Alyson, I never even thoght of that! I might go with an avacado, but bacon's a great idea.  
Anyone else out there? What would you like to see baby pictures replaced with? Exotic vacation spots? Sweets? A glass of wine? 
Thanks for writing Alyson, appreciated the laugh. 
Warmly, 
Lisa
Posted @ Wednesday, March 06, 2013 7:56 AM by Lisa
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