Path To Fertility Blogger Lisa Rosenthal  

Lisa Rosenthal has over twenty-five years of experience in the fertility field, including her current roles as Coordinator of Professional and Patient Communications for RMACT and teacher and founder of Fertile Yoga, a class designed to support, comfort and enhance men and women's sense of self. Her experience also includes working with RESOLVE: The National Infertility Association and The American Fertility Association, where she was Educational Coordinator, Conference Director and Assistant Executive Director

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My Favorite Secrets About Obsession ~ Infertility Or Something Entirely Different


Infertility Or Something Entirely Different

flowers to show infertility secretsI just want this weekend. Simple as that.


I don’t just want this weekend.


I NEED this weekend.


A little time off from obsessing on this, that and the other thing.


Funny thing is, that it being Friday, Saturday or Sunday won’t really prevent me from obsessing because it’s still me. Yes, I bring me wherever I go.


And I’m still not that adept at turning my brain off.




Obsessed? Infertility has you wrapped around its little finger? Wondering every other moment how big your follicles are, how many there are, how your progesterone level is? Feel obsessed even if you aren’t clinically obsessed?


Is an infertility diagnosis taking up so much real estate in your brain that it’s crowding out almost everything else?




I don’t know what you’re going to do about it. I know a few things that don’t work when I’m in that state. Which I am right now, just not about fertility treatment.

Secrets About Obsession

A short list about obsession and what doesn’t work for me:


1. Chocolate. There’s actually not enough chocolate in the world to make me stop thinking this way and there’s definitely not enough chocolate in the world to make me feel more comfortable.


2. Alcohol. So momentary a release and not at all guaranteed to work for me. In the past, it has been known to actually make it worse. I have never noticed that a hangover has helped either.


3. Anger. Ah, and this is such a particularly easy and accessible one for me. I carry the possibility of this one wherever I am, able to come up at any moment. Still, it doesn’t help and leaves an even worse hangover than alcohol and chocolate combined. Invariably, when I indulge in this one, I have a whole slew of apologies to make as well. Which I rarely feel like making.


I’m stuck with what does work, even when it isn’t working. How do I turn my heart and mind away from something that I can’t fix or solve instead of obsessing?


Same old, same old.


8 Tips to Relieve the Struggle


Meditate. Even when it doesn’t work. Especially when it doesn’t work. Longer when it doesn’t work because it gives me pause.


Quiet time. Need it more when I don’t have time for it.


Looking up and out. Followed behind a car last night (very annoying, they drove way too slowly) and started to notice how their headlights danced in the trees, lighting them up momentarily. So very pretty and like a calmed down version of a concert light show. Made me smile.


Sleep enough. Yes, regularly sleeping well is one of those fundamental requirements in life.


Be courageous enough to tell my friends that I’m struggling instead of telling them I’m fine. Talk about what I’m obsessing about (or not) and then ask them about them. Change the subject. Listen with my whole being instead of nodding and secretly continuing to obsess about myself.


Eat properly. It actually doesn’t help to have a stomach ache, headache, hangover or guilt on top of obsessing.


Gratitude list. Ten things every night. Even on a day which has felt just plain awful.


Trust that it will lift. Not as quickly as I would like. Not always precisely when I think I am ready. At some moment, I will realize that it’s been ten minutes without the burden of my obsession. Or a whole hour!


And so on.


My love and compassion to all of you out there struggling with an obsession.



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Focus Turns to Obsession- Drishti Opens the Universe


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Focus. Obsession. The first is what many of us strive for, the second, what we try to avoid. How wide is the dividing line between the two?

Lately, in my own yoga practice, distinct and different than my teaching, I have been exploring focus. If I had a nickel for every time I heard the word used in class, I would be a very wealthy woman. It’s not only part of the language of yoga; it’s a term that I hear more and more frequently in many different places.  

My personal take on focus has been inward and outward at the same time. Focus can be where you lay your eyes or your heart or your mind. Or your breath. Or your anxiety. And so on.

In yoga, where we lay our eyes, our visual focus, is called Drishti. A definition of Drishti is below:

Drishti literally means “perception”. Drishti is the specific point at which to look or focus the gaze when practicing yoga. Looking at the Drishti focuses the mind and brings the concentration inwards.

I’ve heard Drishti discussed, by David Swenson, an Ashtanga guru, as looking out into the infinite as a way to see into the most inner part of ourselves. That the gaze (or Drishti) looks infinitely out and infinitely in. This is me, paraphrasing what I have heard from David. These are not his words; they are my understanding of what he has said. Below is part of a poem by Kahlil Gibran that is on David’s website. I feel that it gives me permission to give my understanding of what David said, regardless of the words that he actually spoke.

Coming back to focus, to Drishti, to infinitely out and in, to obsession. My Drishti has moved to the front of my practice lately. My breath feels reliable and available and while I continue to have it be the moving force behind my practice, I feel ready to let in other layers of my practice.

 My Drishti becomes my entire universe. Whether it is a small blending of light and shadow on a leaf on a tree, or a smudge on the wall, or the smallest piece of the carpeting, I see it and feel it as my entire universe. Letting everything else fall aside, bringing the focus into the tiniest piece of something that speaks to my heart and brings my balance into place.

In those moments, my focus could be considered an obsession. Fierce determination with a soft heart. Letting all other pieces fall away, letting only what I am gazing at matter in any significant way.

Our focus can become our obsession. And there are times that it is appropriate and necessary for that to happen. I know that I need to be very precise about that depth of focus. I know that, for me, that level of focus is highly elevated; it’s something that I am just starting to experience. Gazing at a tiny spot, feeling my breath, heart and mind know that it is the entire universe. Where everything else becomes, not blurry, but non-existent. The entire universe.

And I am starting to awaken to what is not the entire universe. When focus is softer and not even close to that which could be considered obsession.

I’ll talk on Monday about how this relates to infertility. Join me before that with any comments that you might have. When have you been over the edge? Wanting information, perhaps? Results? Answers? When have you seen, absolutely known, that your focus has become an obsession? Please, join the conversation. I need more minds than mine to examine this.

A weekend thought for you:

Say not, “I have found the truth,” but rather, “I have found a truth.”

Say not, “I have found the path to the soul.”

Say rather, “I have met the soul walking upon my path.”

For the soul walks upon all paths.

The soul walks not upon a line; neither does it grow like a reed.

The soul unfolds itself, like a lotus of countless petals.

Kahlil Gibran


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