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Lisa Rosenthal has over twenty-five years of experience in the fertility field, including her current roles as Coordinator of Professional and Patient Communications for RMACT and teacher and founder of Fertile Yoga, a class designed to support, comfort and enhance men and women's sense of self. Her experience also includes working with RESOLVE: The National Infertility Association and The American Fertility Association, where she was Educational Coordinator, Conference Director and Assistant Executive Director

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Infertility Heroes of the Day ~ Babies and Unicorns

  
  
  

Infertility Heroes of the Day ~ Babies and Unicorns

canyon pathway for infertility heroes resized 600Waiting for the results or even waiting for the next set of results. In our heads, going around and around during infertility. How’s my cycle going? How is it going now? How about now? How many follicles? How big? Have the embryos grown? How many? Am I pregnant? How pregnant?

 

We complicate things, we human beings, don’t we? We get into our own heads and we think and we think and we think and then we think some more.

 

We think we can think our way to all the answers and then we will arrive and know everything. And then, by gosh, we think some more.

 

Hence, my FB proclamation yesterday. I don’t often post things besides my blog or something educational. These past few days though, I have gotten so very tired of the real estate in my own head. So tired of my own thoughts and my own complications and then thinking more that I can figure it all out.

 

My FB post from yesterday, shared from a distant FB friend was this:

“Being a person is getting too complicated. Time to be a Unicorn. ~Unknown Author

I was driving myself crazy in the privacy of my own brain.

 

Then the day got much, much better.

From Prenatal Yoga to Newborn

I had the absolute delight and pleasure yesterday of holding a barely month-old baby. Interestingly enough, I am not all that much of a baby person. Not one of those people who swoon over every baby I meet.

 

This baby though is different. This is a baby that I knew about from embryo to emerged human being. That I got to see grow in prenatal yoga, that I heard about for the entire nine months that he was growing.  A baby who I saw get larger and larger and move more and more. Who, in fact, heard my voice once a week for his entire time in utero.

 

That baby! Oh my. Nothing to get you out of your own head than a newborn sleeping contentedly on your chest. No more thinking. Brain shut down. Utter physical pleasure. Utter connection. Feeling him get heavier and more into his own comfort was inspiring.

 

That baby reminded me of a Unicorn. Too complicated to be an adult. I want to be a Unicorn.

 

He didn’t worry about when he’d be hungry next. Or need to be changed next. Or if he would be cold five minutes or five hours from then. He just was. There were no worries at all. If he was upset, he made it known and what he was upset about was figured out and solved.

 

That baby was Zen. In the moment. A Unicorn, uncomplicated by a busy brain.

 

He’s my hero. He’s my fertile hero. He’s the entire reason that we do what we do here at RMACT. Every single one of us on team RMACT is here to help you find your babies.

 

And let me tell you, the end results? Are miraculous. Every single one of them. Just like Unicorns.

 

That Unicorn baby yesterday got me right out of my head. He got me looking at clouds. And dragonflies. And birdhouses for purple martins. He had me looking at rivers and the way the sun hit the stones. He had me listening to my fellow human beings and seeing them as miraculous Unicorns.

 

Thanks miracle baby. I needed that.

 

 

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Hunger, Eating, Miracles, Infertility and Anne Lamott

  
  
  

Monday text
I love sharing what I am reading with you. Books are an integral part of my life, my days, and my evenings. If I have nothing new, (usually because my library has a poster with my picture on it and a wanted slogan underneath) then I reread something. I’ve been known to sit down and read a milk carton, for lack of other things to read. One unexpected joy was reading Robert Heinlein for lack of a single other book to read on a vacation. Never liked science fiction before that and fell in love with the genre after that.

During my struggles with infertility, books were especially important as a place where I could dive in and disappear. They became an alternate universe; a place where I lived outside of myself.I credit books with helping me keep the sanity that I had during fertility treatment.

So I’m reading Anne Lamott, whom I love. A friend commented on how religious based her writing was and was surprised that piece didn’t turn me off. I believe that’s one of the reasons that I love her books because I see them as faith based, or spiritually based, rather than simply religious based. She has her own religion which she shares with the reader, but she does not push it on you. Or at least I feel that she has shared, not pushed.

In her book, Traveling Mercies, Some Thoughts on Faith, a memoir, therefore non-fiction, she talks about growing up, falling down, getting up and so on and so forth. There is a chapter in the book called Hunger, where she speaks about her relationship with food and the eating disorder she struggled with. She doesn’t sugar coat a thing; she allows us to see the battles that she fights without minimizing the size of the battle.

“It is, finally, so wonderful to have learned to eat, to taste and love what slips down my throat, padding me, fill me up, that I’m not uncomfortable calling it a small miracle. A friend who does not believe in God says, “Maybe not a miracle, but a little improvement,” but to that I say Listen! You must not have heard me right; I couldn’t feed myself! So thanks for your input, but I know where I was, and I know where I am now, and you just can’t get here from there. Something happened that I had despaired would ever happen. It was like being a woman who has despaired of ever getting to be a mother but who now cradles a baby. So it was either a miracle- Picasso said, “Everything is a miracle; it’s a miracle that one does not dissolve in one’s bath like a lump of sugar”- or maybe it was more of a gift, one that required some assembly. But whatever it was, learning to eat was about learning to live- and deciding to live; and it is one of the most radical things I’ve ever done.“

I know that you are working on a miracle. I know that you are counting on science and medicine and even statistics to help get you there. Perhaps learning to feed ourselves, whether it is literally about food, or it’s about enjoying a moment or two in the middle of a two week wait or it’s about feeling like you can move forward when you hear bad news, perhaps that is the miracle too.

 I do believe in miracles and I do believe they can seem very small, even when they make the moment blossom and become shiny and vibrant. There is nothing small about the miracle that you are hoping and striving for; just keep those eyes open for the smaller miracles that happen along the way.

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