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Lisa Rosenthal has over twenty-five years of experience in the fertility field, including her current roles as Coordinator of Professional and Patient Communications for RMACT and teacher and founder of Fertile Yoga, a class designed to support, comfort and enhance men and women's sense of self. Her experience also includes working with RESOLVE: The National Infertility Association and The American Fertility Association, where she was Educational Coordinator, Conference Director and Assistant Executive Director

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Infertility - What I Am Most Grateful For Today

  
  
  
Infertility Blog- What Are You Grateful About Today?

 

 

Gratitude is the heart's memory ~French proverb 

 

I would rather be able to appreciate things I can not have than to have things I am not able to appreciate ~Elbert Hubbard

 

gratitude in understanding infertilityTwo quotes about being grateful for today. I couldn't pick just one so I'm giving you both.

 

In honor of it being Friday. That way you can pick the one that resonates for you.

 

While I've always know the phrase TGIF, until today, I have never appreciated it quite so much.

 

Because today, I'm so unbelievably grateful it's Friday.

Understanding Infertility and Cultivating Gratitude

I'm grateful for my experiences in understanding infertility, today and last night. If it weren't for my experiences with infertility, I would not have the honor and privilage of sharing Fertile Yoga with the very special and dynamic women who come to class. I would not have the life I have right now, if it weren't for infertility.

 

I'm grateful for my husband. For his strength, grace, sense of humor and his presence. I remember things like the night he came home, exhausted, physically sore and still had it in him to fix the fuse box and go back outside in the rain for the dental floss.

 

I'm grateful for the people that I have in my life. I'm grateful to be as healthy as I am.

 

I'm grateful to do work that I believe in and that means so much to me.

 

I'm grateful for the ability to love the way that I do. With my full heart. Regardless of whether I should, I do.

 

I'm grateful for my wonderful colleagues that offer help and a smile. That truly work as a team, helping and supporting each other as well as all the men and women who are struggling to conceive. I have mentioned it before, but it's overdue, the RMACT team is a family that I feel grateful and blessed to have in my life at this time.

 

I'm grateful for my family.

 

I'm grateful that right this minute, I do not hear any rain!

 

I am grateful for those friends in my life who are there in real ways. Who I can tell the truth to, who I can answer honestly. I'm grateful that they see all of me, the good, the bad and the reallly awful and love me anyway.

 

I'm grateful for those in my heart, in my past, because I do remember. And I do believe that gratitude is the heart's memory. I appreciate those no longer actively in my life. And I miss some of them tremendously.

 

My heart remembers.

 

And I am grateful for the love. For I am truly loved.

 

What are you grateful for today?

 

 

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Fertility Program FAQs - Am I Infertile? Should I Keep Trying to Conceive?

  
  
  

Fertility Program FAQs for Trying to Conceive

Dr. Mark Leondires, Medical Director of our fertility program at Reproductive Medicine Associates of Connecticut (RMACT), uses the term "subfertile". Not only is a lot more user-friendly than "infertile", it turns out to be a whole lot more accurate. Infertile would truly mean not to bother trying, it's not going to work. Subfertile means that there are may be a problem in becoming pregnant but there are also ways to overcome those problems.

 

Otherwise, no one would ever get pregnant in fertility treatment and, luckily, that is not the case. 

 

It may be that you are trying on your own at home. If so, please read below to make sure that you are optimizing your chances of conceiving. 

 

After all, timing isn't everything. But with fertility, infertility and especially subfertility, it's an awful lot.

 

These questions and answers and many more are questions that we are asked over and over again at RMACT and that have been answered either by our board certified reproductive endocrinologists or other specialized clinical staff. There are other questions in our FAQ section, which focuses on Infertility Answers and Pregnancy FAQs. And if there's a question that you have that is not there, please ask me. I'll find out the answer for you ~Lisa Rosenthal

 

At what time of the month is a woman fertile?


ovarian cycle chart for fertility program FAQsThe most fertile time of a woman’s cycle is just before or the of day ovulation. Ovulation usually occurs two weeks before a period starts, so it is necessary to count backwards from the anticipated start of the next period in order to find the most fertile time.

 

Take the number of days in the usual cycle (from the beginning of one period to the beginning of the next) and subtract 14. For example, a woman with a 32-day period would likely ovulate around day 18 (32-14=18), while a woman with a 28-day cycle would ovulate around day 14 (28-14=14). We recommend every other day intercourse around the day of ovulation. That would mean days 12, 14 and 16 for women with 28 days cycles.


It is best to have intercourse before ovulation rather than afterwards, so a woman who ovulates on day 14 would have a good chance of conceiving if she has intercourse on either day 13 or 14. For women with irregular cycles you can extend the period of every other day sexual relations.


Alternatively, women with irregular cycles may want to use an ovulation predictor kit, which can be purchased over the counter at most local pharmacies. This involves testing your urine around the time of ovulation using a detector stick, which give you a visual reading. Additionally, there are electronic monitors which detect ovulation by tracking two hormones (estrogen and luteinizing hormone) starting with urine testing on day one of your menstrual cycle. The methods that utilize urine predictor sticks or urine ovulation detector machines are usually highly sensitive, accurate, and reliable.


How can a woman tell if she ovulates?


The simple, inexpensive way of finding out the approximate time of your ovulation is to take your basal temperature (that is, your body temperature at rest) every morning and record it on a chart. You can buy a Basal Body Thermometer at your local drug store. Save all your charts so you can review them with your doctor. Three or four months of charting should be adequate. If your temperature goes up after the middle of your menstrual month you likely do ovulate. In general you ovulate about two days prior to the temperature rise.


How often should you have intercourse?

 

It is a good idea to have intercourse every other day around the time you ovulate. Remember, every woman is different, and may not ovulate exactly on “Day 14.” And, just because you ovulated on “Day 14″ this month, doesn’t mean you will next month. It is preferable to have intercourse every other day rather than every day so that sufficient sperm will be available. To increase your chances of the egg becoming fertilized, do not douche or use lubricants immediately before having intercourse.

 

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With Infertility, What Do We Hold Onto and What Do We Get Rid Of?

  
  
  

Infertility - Holding On and Letting Go

infertility spring cleaningSpring cleaning almost always brings to mind what we want to get rid of; what is ready to be thrown away. That makes sense, doesn’t it? We need to clear out space for new things. In a garden, we need to trim away and cut down and even dig out the old for new growth to have space to evolve into.

 

With infertility, there are all these old feelings that come up. Not each one for every one of us. This is not a universal truth. Still, it’s typical and common for feelings of frustration, sadness, hopelessness, disappointment, fear and more to show their faces and stay a lot longer than we would like.

 

Going into the garden and digging, pruning, clearing out is a natural for me. And I have done some major damage that way for the simple reason that not every plant in my garden needs to be dug or pruned at the same time. Or at all. Some plants need to grow on last year or the last decade’s growth. It doesn’t grow anew every year. The perennials need to be removed if they weren’t all ready in the fall. They will not grow back. Careful where you dig, for the bulbs that you can’t see from the surface, they are there; resting comfortably, knowing it’s not quite their turn yet.

Spring Cleaning

Spring cleaning isn’t only about getting rid of things, or even cleaning them up. Spring cleaning is also about recognizing what is valuable; what you want to keep. Perhaps it’s peace of mind. Or perhaps it’s something else that is very difficult to hold onto. Something very elusive.

 

There are fine and beautiful things in my garden and my home that I cherish and want to have remain in my life. Things in my garden that I cultivate, things in my home that I move out of the reach of my cats, (is there such a place?) so that they can survive unbroken.

 

It’s tempting to think that spring cleaning is a purge. Out with the old, in with new! Get rid of it all.

 

While I don’t like the feeling of being attached to material items, I have to confess that there are items that have a lot of meaning for me. In the case of a house fire? My animals are what I want out of the house, no further discussion needed. If I had time to rescue a few more things though, these are the things on the short list:

 

  • My photographs
  • My wedding rings if they weren’t already on my finger
  • A plate with some very special handprints on it
  • A drawing that a dear friend of mine gave me

 

Wow. I’m amazed at how difficult that list was to create because when I carefully consider what I want out there on the lawn if I were watching the house burn down; there just really aren’t things that I feel that attached to anymore. The objects in my house, while I’m very fond of, are not irreplaceable or inherently essential to me.  The intangibles, now there are a few of those that I would want to hold onto. Here are just a few that have become more significant to me of late:

 

  • Peace of mind
  • A sense of calm, that ability to pause before acting or saying something
  • My feeling of delight by the smallest of moments.

Getting back to spring cleaning. What do you want to hold on to as you toss out the stuff that you feel so done with?  You may be as surprised as I was to realize what was on which list.

 

 

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Fertility Hormones Can Elevate Your Emotions - Uh Huh!

  
  
  

Handling Fertility Hormones

chlomid and fertility emotionsHormones are funny. Funny, odd, not funny ha ha. As if infertility and fertility treatment wasn’t stressful and emotional enough, then there are the hormones. Extra hormones. LOL. Really. Extra hormones. Wanting to be pregnant, wanting your baby in your arms, finding that you can’t get pregnant the old fashioned way, need to go to a doctor, manage the financial aspects, the medical treatment, the numerous doctor’s appointments, not enough to make you crazy? Ok, and then let’s add some extra hormones to the mix.

Clomid Stories - One of Many

Ok, I remember my first experience on Clomid. It was not pretty. Who knows if it was really the hormones or just an emotional reaction to them? Who cares? I turned from a fairly normal, slightly neurotic woman into a crazed, over reactive harpy. No one could say anything to me about anything without getting shrieked at. It was really ugly.

 

My best friend, Pamela, took the fertility medications and did not have that reaction. I wanted to kill her most of all. If I had to be that miserable, was it too much to ask that she be just as miserable? Wasn’t that what a best friend would reasonably do?

 

If you think I am exaggerating, think again. I’m not.

 

My good news? For me, when I went to the injectible medications (which I didn’t want to do), it was a huge relief. I can’t emphasize enough how huge a relief it was. I had none of the reactions that I had on Clomid and it was a relief beyond relief, for everyone involved.

 

Sit and talk with a group of women in fertility treatment and it runs the gamut. Some of us have no reactions to some of the medications, some of us have big reactions to others and still others of us barely notice any of it, including the injections.

Fertility Injections and Anticipation

What struck me most was the anticipation. There are very few of us who are used to giving injections. Still less of us who are used to giving ourselves the injections. So along with the fear of reaction to the medication, there was also the anticipation of actually giving ourselves a shot. I sat there and counted to ten. That worked very well. I can still hear my husband laughing though, because I counted to ten about two hundred times. The first time I gave myself a fertiity injection, it took me twenty five minutes. Twenty five minutes to give myself an injection with a needle about the diameter of a single strand of my hair.

 

It was easier the second time.

 

The anticipation of being on the medication is similar. You hear horror stories, really, horrible stories, on the internet, on message boards, even from friends who have gone through fertility treatment. The quieter stories are those without those reactions. Those of us who take the medication and have elevated emotionality. Like that phrase? Sounds simple. You don’t have to have a horror story to feel more emotional and edgy.

 

What’s the moral of the story? Anticipation can easily turn into anxiety. Fertility treatment isn’t easy, at all, either physically or emotionally. Expect that treatment may be challenging, give yourself and those around you a break.

 

How do you handle these treatments and situations? Any suggestions for the rest of us?

 

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Infertility Anxiety? Ideas From Those In The Middle of It

  
  
  

Infertility Anxiety - Ideas from Our Community

I write when I’m anxious.Infertility Program Offers Support During Fertility Treatment

 

Sometimes I eat. (OK, often I eat when I’m anxious.)

 

I meditate when I’m anxious. Or create a mantra and repeat it. 

 

Infertility and fertility treatment sometimes causes anxiety. To be fair, it also creates hopeful anticipation and lots and lots of joy when it works.

 

Taking medication, having to come in for ultrasounds, noticing changes in our bodies, having to be aware of scheduling--all can create some anxiety.

Tips for Anxiety

Here are a few suggestions from our Fertile Yoga ladies -- tips for anxiety -- on how to handle those feelings:

 

  1. Writing in a journal - stream of thought. Releasing it to paper or onto the computer will allow it to flow from your head out. Seeing it out there is often calming as you have given yourself a way to see it, outside yourself.
  2. Listening to music - plug in! Find something that is so unbelievably beautiful that you just can't help but dive in. Sing along. Tap your foot. 
  3. A side note to music - DANCE. Enjoy your body. Do it privately if it makes you less self-conscious.
  4. Read. Oh yeah. Dive right into a book. A nice, juicy novel. 
  5. Educate yourself. Make that stack of books on your nightstand books that will help you understand the infertility and fertility treatment process.
  6. Work out! Take a walk. Go to yoga. 
  7. Consider a brand new style of therapy. Profane therapy. Swearing evidently can help. Let loose. Then let yourself laugh. 
  8. Movies - there are a lot of them coming out right about now. George Clooney. Need I say more?

 

Thank you Fertile Yoga Ladies for all these suggestions.

 

Any other ideas for managing anxiety?

 

Let me know. I'll post them here. Anonymously, if you like. 

 

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Infertility and Winter Storms... Out of Control

  
  
  

Weathering Winter Storms

infertility and winter stormsOkay, I’m obsessed with the weather. Not only obsessed with the weather itself but also obsessed with making analogies between weather and life. I love storms!

 

And then I usually do make the connections with understanding infertility. Infertility, weather and life. How much free will, how much a force of nature. How much are we just on for the ride? I have noticed more than occasionally that the more that I want something, or rather, the more that I try to force something, the more challenging it becomes.

 

I love the weather because it reminds me that my life would not be perfect if I were more organized. My life would be more orderly if I were more organized, but it would not be perfect. Regardless of how carefully I had set up my day, all my plans were blown away by the snow storm we are experiencing. It is a snowstorm that makes us believe the meteorologists, even when they are so often wrong. They may be right about this one.

The Infertility Reminder

And yes, it reminds me of infertility. Carefully, well organized plans. The first plan, for most of us, is to have a partner that we love that we want to have a child with.  Any of you out there remember how challenging that can be? If not, speak to one of your single friends, they will be able to remind you.

 

We women need to find that partner earlier rather than later to avoid certain fertility problems. Our wisdom allows us to make better choices as we get older, in terms of partners, but getting older does not make it easier to have babies. That feels like a heart wrenching choice and some of us choose to become single parents, rather than wait for the partner who we would like to parent with.

 

Going on with our well laid plans. How many of us thought we’d be seeing a medical team to become pregnant? Some of us did absolutely everything we could, for years, to avoid becoming pregnant! Who expected that when we wanted to, it would be so difficult? Whether because we waited until we found a partner, waited until we were more financially secure or didn’t wait at all, it’s a shock to find out that medical help is the way our babies will be created. Not in a loving, intimate setting, but in a doctor's office. And yes, how lucky did I feel that there were doctors out there that could help, even if it wasn’t in my original plan.

 

I can still remember listening to one of my friends talk about planning her children by what astrological sign she wanted them to be. Yes, really. Talk about family planning. The most odious thing was that it worked for her. She has an Aquarius, Taurus and a Libra. Of course, over and over again, life has interrupted her carefully laid plans, in the way that life does.

 

 And if life hasn’t done it, we always have the weather.

 

Best wishes for the storm . . .

 

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Coping With Infertility - The Last Ones

  
  
  

Coping With Infertility 

Our CT infertility program has been getting a lot of mail lately.

 

A lot of baby announcements.Infertility Peer Support Group

 

Baby feet.

 

Baby names.

 

Baby faces.

 

Reminders of what we do and why we do it.

 

To create loving families.

 

To add to loving families.

 

For those of us still waiting, we wonder.

 

Will I be the one who doesn’t conceive.

 

Will I be the one who doesn’t have my baby.

 

Will I alone, be the only one who doesn’t have my family?

 

Will I be the patient that never leaves this infertility program?

 

Because the hard part is that there are no guarantees.

 

No one will say, “yes, after 1 year, 2 years, 3 years, you will have a baby”.

 

So we wait.

 

You wait.

 

We wait with you.

 

We talk with you, laugh with you, cry with you.

 

We wait together with you.

 

You are not alone.

 

We know it’s hard.

 

No one wants to be the one left without a baby.

 

We’re here, with you.

 

 

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RMACT Infertility Patients - Thanksgiving Thoughts and Gratitude

  
  
  

Thanksgiving Thoughts

Infertility Patients from RMACT Tell Their Thoughts of Thanksgiving and Gratitude

Thanksgiving thoughts, during the days before the holiday.

 

Preparations are in full swing. Travel arrangements are also being commenced or coordinated, whether driving, flying or picking people up.

 

Cooking or meal planning has started and shopping for ingredients is obvious when you walk into any grocery store.

 

Expectations are high. We are to be thankful, grateful, happy, content.

 

Uh, huh. Except for when we're not.

Infertility and Gratitude

Today's blog is about infertility and gratitude and thanksgiving.

 

So many of us experiencing infertility do feel gratitude about so many things. I know this because I get to speak to so many of you. 

 

Here's what I've heard lately, from you, about gratitude and thanksgiving, in your voices:

 

  1. "I'm grateful for the strength and foundation of my marriage"
  2. "I'm grateful for the support and help my friends have given me"
  3. "Every single day, I find things that bring me joy"
  4. "I'm so thankful for my job, which is so fulfilling"
  5. "The support that I feel from my family holds me up"
  6. "How interesting to see where support comes from, unexpected people who understand what I'm going through"
  7. "I love noticing the things that make other people smile"
  8. "Music brings me joy, even on the worst days"
  9. "Knowing that my husband is there for me, means everything"
  10. "I know that a child will enter my life, one way or another"
  11. "My faith sustains me"
  12. "I'm so grateful for the medical care and attention that I get from my doctors and medical staff"
  13. "Infertility has deepened many relationships for me, including the one with myself. Who knew I had the strength to go through fertility treatment, with shots, and medication and more?

 

Just little tidbits that I have gotten from all of you. You may recognize your words or your sentiments. Or you may be inspired by someone else's words and thoughts.

 

Thanksgiving is a time of hope and expectation. 

 

That can be a lot tougher to create than a Thanksgiving dinner.

 

Would you please tell me what you're grateful for this Thanksgiving?

 

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Infertility Friends Get It, Including Sneaking Into the Bathroom

  
  
  

Struggling with Infertility

struggling with infertilityA common scenario when we are struggling with infertility is that we feel alone; we feel that no one truly understands the magnitude of what we are going through. We withdraw from friends and family because their concern, although well meaning, is frequently hurtful or intrusive. Even when our friends and family say precisely the right thing, at the right time and drop the subject the moment that you ask them to, we still experience pain. It makes holidays, get togethers, even simple conversations a strain where once it was easy and comfortable.

Peer Support Group Privileges

I feel honored to help facilitate a peer support group where we laugh, cry, help, support and educate one another. I’m very thankful and grateful for this group of women who show up, lay it on the line and tell it like it is. Relationships are formed and valuable bonds are made in these groups. Why can we tell strangers things that we cringe about sharing with those who love us?

 

Simple, really. We understand. We get it. Who else really does get what it’s like to go to friends for an evening and have to disappear into the bathroom? Together, I mean, your partner and yourself. LOL. Who else understands that it makes you want to laugh and cry at the same time? Who else understands that there’s a part of you that hopes your friends think that you are having hot sex in the bathroom, not getting a shot in your derriere? Who else understands that your vacation is being postponed because you’re in the middle of a cycle? Who else understands what it’s like to get one more birth announcement, one more whispered “I’m pregnant”? Who else understands our younger sisters conceiving and having children and our hearts full for them and breaking for ourselves?

 

Cultivating Gratitude: Make Your Own List

 

So for those of us who get it, here’s my list of things that infertility makes me grateful for, in case feeling grateful feels like a really big stretch, or even impossible:

 

  1. Ovulating each month
  2. Front desk person at your fertility clinic smiling at you
  3. Getting your period regularly
  4. Have insurance coverage for fertility treatment
  5. Have veins that cooperate in getting blood drawn
  6. Struggling with PCOS and finding ways to minimize the impact
  7. Getting a positive pregnancy test
  8. Able to face the emotional roller coaster that is infertility treatment
  9. Fertile Yoga
  10. Are healthy and young enough to be able to consider fertility treatment
  11. Producing enough follicles to go through In Vitro Fertilization
  12. Able to do IUI’s (Intra uterine inseminations) with a high probability of success
  13. Have the financial resources to continue treatment even without insurance coverage
  14. Professional therapists who have the ability to make us see things differently, espcially our feelings
  15. Nurses who are approachable and compassionate
  16. A fertility program where you are treated as a whole person and not a walking diagnosis
  17. Getting your period after three or four months
  18. Ultrasound showing a heartbeat
  19. A painless transfer
  20. A nutritionist that is not judgemental, but really really helpful
  21. A retrieval that goes smoothly and easily
  22. Live in a day and age where third party reproductive technology is available
  23. Can compare one fertility specialist (board certified reproductive endocrinologist) to another and pick one who is the best fit
  24. Having access to complementary programs that enhance your chances of conception
  25. Not strangling your friend/family member/co-worker/boss/partner/waitress who asks yet again when you are going to have a baby
  26. Live in a state where it’s mandated that infertility is covered by insurance
  27. Chocolate
  28. Passion tea
  29. Able to turn to a partner for help and support
  30. Ultrasound showing a sac
  31. Feeling hope that this time the cycle will work and there will be a baby at the end of the rainbow

 

What goes on your list? Share your ideas in the comments and we'll build a new list together. I’m grateful to you, my community, my group who gets it--for reading, for commenting, for caring.

 

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Infertility Strength: A Lesson from Fragile Eggs and Bald Eagles

  
  
  

Bald Eagles, Fragile Eggs and Infertility 

infertility strength reminder from bald eaglesI remember vividly one weekend I spent with family a few years ago. Eating, talking, squabbling interspersed with racing outside, quietly, to gaze at bald eagles. There were three of them, two immature, and one with a gleaming white feathered head. I have never seen a bald eagle outside of captivity, although when in areas where they are reported to be, I have looked and hoped.

 

 

Photo: LimarieC, Flickr Creative Commons

 

Here are some bald eagle facts: They have a wing span of up to seven feet. They are almost four feet tall. Their talons and beaks are intense and rather scary to look at. When they perch in a tree and look at you, it's intimidating, especially knowing that they can see the pores in your skin, their eyesight is that good. They don't look like anything else. If you see a bird that big, with a white head, it's the only bird that it can be. The noises of other birds change when they are around. First it gets very quiet, and then it gets very strident. It's not the usual bird chatter that you hear; there truly is a sense of urgency in it.

 

I think the single most fascinating fact that I learned this weekend was how much the birds weigh. We had a bird expert among us who knew but before he told us, we all guessed. The highest guess was forty-five pounds. It turns out that a full grown eagle, with a seven foot wing span, sitting almost four feet tall weighs about eight to fourteen pounds. Probably some of you knew that even a bird that large would weight very little, given the whole flying thing -- hollow bones, lots of feathers and all. I was astounded that a bird so majestic, so powerful, so intimidating would weigh so little. When we had the rare pleasure of seeing one of the younger birds actually snatch a fish out of the water and then have the other young bird grab it away, you could feel the speed, power, determination and utter strength of this bird.

Understanding Infertility and the Power of Possibility

So of course it made me think about you. About understanding infertility. About power, strength and possibility in something that weighs so little. About our eggs, our embryos, our hopes. And for those of us who "only" have one or two follicles or "only" retrieve one or two eggs, or "only" have one or two embryos fertilize, or "only" have one or two embryos that mature to day five.

 

While I was thinking about this I recalled the conversation during the afternoon of how our bald eagle population went into a serious, dangerous decline for a long time, partly due to the use of DDT which made their eggs so fragile that babies were much less frequently hatched. When the numbers of eagles were declining, each one was important to the continuation of the species. That is still true. They had help, our help, we banned DDT, we passed laws that made it illegal to disturb their nesting area. We helped.

 

Doesn't each of us deserve the same help?

 

I came home and looked up some information about bald eagles and found out that they are one of the few species who have struggled and succeeded in being upgraded from the endangered to the threatened list. There are an estimated 70,000 bald eagles in the world.

 

I had the pleasure of watching three of them that weekend and thinking of our own strength.

 

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